Please say "YES"...

So if many of you do not know. I have been back and forth to the doctor. I had to have surgery on my foot. Thats besides the point though. Every time I go to the hospital I get an urge to go to the cancer section. I know thats really random and odd. But i just feel like God wants me to do something there, and I am just kind of like okay God--if that is where you want me, Just answer my prayers and tell me "Yes, that where I want you." (I have been praying about it a lot.) Considering I do NOT have a car, and i live in Hammond--an hour and a half away from Children's Hospital--it is going to be a bit of a struggle. But if it is God's will, I strongly believe that God will provide me with what i need to get there. I keep envisioning myself just playing with the kids that have cancer, and speaking an abundance of hope into their lives, and bringing them joy. I want to do that. I want to show them the love of Christ, I want to show them that there is others who care about the situation that they are in. I just want to be there. I want to see the beautiful smiles on their faces. I want to see miracles happen--in Jesus' name. 

"Trust in the LORD forever, for the LORD, the LORD himself,is the Rock eternal." -Isaiah 26:4

He is the ULTIMATE BIRTHDAY BOY!

I know i am a tad bit late with my "Merry Christmas Post." I am so very sorry! Life got a little crazy at my house! We had my step brother in town with his wife and four kids. WOAH RIGHT? I know, well I had a great time, and I just wanted to tell all of you guys Merry Christmas (sorry I am late)!

My life. My obsessions. My loves. Can i share?

My first ever...

Today my mom checked the mail. She came back with a card in hand addressed to me! Its so funny because usually my sister or myself like to drive to the mailbox just to drive. But I have really been doing it because I have been liking the abundance of mail I have been receiving lately, weather it be mail from SLU concerning school or weather it be mail from Capital One concerning my bank account (it makes me feel more responsible in a way). But today I received my first Christmas card ever addressed to me! I know you might think I am crazy right? I actually have a point, a point about why this is so exciting and why this was so important I just had to tell you about it! Well i have been being kind of a Grinch this Christmas. I guess. I did not want to put the Christmas tree up(not to mention i had to do it twice because mom knocked it over), I did not want to spend my money on Christmas presents just to tell someone i love them or show them how much i care about them or how much i pay attention to the things they actually like. I just did not want to do it! 

I went Christmas shopping with my mom yesterday, and lets just say i was not the happiest about shopping. Usually i like to mingle around stores and really look at everything. Yesterday I was just ready to get home--just to leave again. I really needed something to put me in the Christmas Spirit. To go on yesterday out youth group got together (about 30 of us) and we went to a homeless shelter down in New Orleans to serve. We sang Christmas music with them, we worshiped with them to How He Loves (it made me cry tears of joy) and a few of us shared testimonies. It was so moving, and eye opening. At the end Joel told gave anyone that wanted to the chance to be led in a prayer to surrender their lives to God, to lay everything down to worship their King! He told them if they wanted to--to just repeat the prayer he prayed, and as Joel began to pray the prayer aloud, out of 150 people in this homeless shelter is sounded like all 150 of them were repeating this prayer. In that instance my heart began to shatter into a million pieces. At the end we handed out care bags with toiletries in it--i started to get in the Christmas spirit a little bit, just to see the smiles on the peoples faces, and hearing them say thank you so much with beautiful smiles and yet broken hearts. 

Then i got this card in the mail today. On the inside was written "We thank God for the blessing you are to the Varsity! You are such a beautiful and willing vessel for Jesus! We love you!" and I looked over to read "I bring you good tidings of great joy which will be to all people. For there is born to you this day in the city David a Savior who is Christ the Lord". -Luke2:10-11. Instantly I thought to myself. I said "Georgia its not all about the crabby cashiers at stores, or the money you spend on gifts, or even the overly road raged drivers. You are not remembering the reason for the season." I am so honored to be apart of the Missions Varsity. I know this is where God wants me. I love to serve my King every chance i get. I love knowing at the end of the day, He is the only person that will never give up on me. He is the only one that will ever truly love me unconditionally, and who will ever fully understand what I am going though. He is the only person that will ever fully know me, and why I do what I do. I am here to go where He wants me to go and do what He wants me to do, and no one is going to stop me. I am a servant of Him. I want to walk in His footsteps, and be more of  that "willing vessel" that they see! Thank you Joel and Joye, it really means a lot!

Our precious and beautiful God gave up his life, and died on the cross so our sins could be forgiven. Do you remember the silly saying everyone uses around Christmas? "Remember the reason for the season?" Please Please Please remember. Jesus loves each and everyone of us unconditionally, and this Christmas just praise Him and show him the unconditional love that he shows you. Let it be a day of peace, and love one another!

He is the ULTIMATE BIRTHDAY BOY!

It is okay to dream right?

Today i began to find my self Dreamin'. I was on my way to help with child-care for another church's Christmas Program and my friend Cooley that picked me up is getting married in less than a month--so excited for her its all we talked about the way there. We talked about what kind of decorations she would have and where, who would be in her wedding, who would be at her wedding, how she would do her hair (she does not have much), and even about how i would dance with her husband for the money dance just to creep him out... 

As i ran around starting my engine with Charlie (his favorite movie is cars, so he likes to act like hes a car), calling Payton's name just to see her make random faces, holding Liam and reassuring him that his Mommy would be right back, and talking to Remington about his girlfriend (hes only two)-- I found myself Dreamin'. I was thinking about one day being married and I started to think of silly details like:

• Who my husband would be?
• What would my engagement ring look like?
• Where will he propose?
• What will my dress look like?
• Am I going to have a big wedding or a small wedding?
• Who will be in my wedding?
• Who will I invite?
• What will my colors be?

All so silly and cliche right? I find myself Dreamin' about this stuff A LOT lately. I am not sure why. I have never dated. So maybe I am just curious? But I am so weird and paranoid about dating. I want my husband to be my first kiss, the first guy I fall in love with. I do not ever want to be "Just another girl I dated and it did not work out." I want my husband to be so in love with God and unashamed to show it. I want him to have a faith that can move mountains, along with the purest and kindest love ever. I love the verse 1Corinthians 13:2 "I have the gift of prophecy and can fathom all mysteries and all knowledge,and if I have a faith that can move mountains, but have not love, I am nothing."

I pray for my husband every single night--I know it kind of seems silly. But, I just pray for simple things, like I pray that my husband is saved in Jesus' name. I pray that whomever he is God will show me him--in his perfect timing. I also pray that he loves Jesus just as much as I do, and know him as well as I do (if not better).

I know Dreamin' is not going to get me anywhere, but on the internet looking at wedding dresses and rings--but, I know that in Gods perfect timing it will all fall into place. I know that one day I will be able to talk to my family and friends about the perfect guy who swept me off of my feet.

I felt like a failure...

Cute huh? That took an hour of feeling like a failure… When I get crafty, i sometimes try to be a perfectionist at my work. But my work never wants to work together with me. The walls kept caving in, the candy would not stay on and yet they make it look so easy. So my sister and I decided to give it another try with a BIG one.

Even harder! The walls caved in every five seconds. So my sister and I tried to super glue the house together… Not a good idea (you mind as well just super glue your fingers together). They had a huge gap in the roof, I tried fixing it with aluminum foil. DIDN’T WORK. My sister decided that she was going to try and “help” me fix it, she ended up making it crumble to pieces. After a mound of tears and a fallen apart ginger bread house, I would not continue to let my self feel like a failure. So i sucked it up and threw it together, and that was the outcome . After I took the picture, it started to cave in again….. Oh well it will be a great memory to look back on!

                         

Sometimes you have to be stripped of everything.

Meet Anthony. His spirit is so amazingly beautiful. He is homeless, but is is so content with that, because he knows that all he needs is Jesus. Anthony’s story really touched my heart, so i am going to share a good bit of it with you. (:

My church youth group was volunteering at a food drive type thing, this guy  started to walk up , and one of the woman from the church running it began to pretty much scream “one of my male leaders i need y’all to get him away, now!” and to us that just was not cool, so our dear Erin and Jeremy went over there and loved on him. He wanted to do no harm. He was just walking along. He had a degree in chemical engineering, and he had a wonderful job working for shell. He ended up getting laid off, and within 48 hours he bottomed out (lost everything). All he has is a backpack and a truck, hes been to 48 states, just telling people about jesus. I am not sure about you, but that is so humbling to me…

To go on, we all ended up talking to him, and he asked if anyone had a bible… Our dear Mandy gave him hers, and he opened up to Isaiah 53 and he said that it had been working on his heart. 

Isaiah 53:1-13 says:

¹ Who has believed our message 
   and to whom has the arm of the LORD been revealed? 
² He grew up before him like a tender shoot, 
   and like a root out of dry ground. 
He had no beauty or majesty to attract us to him, 
   nothing in his appearance that we should desire him. 
³ He was despised and rejected by mankind, 
   a man of suffering, and familiar with pain. 
Like one from whom people hide their faces 
   he was despised, and we held him in low esteem.

 ⁴ Surely he took up our pain 
   and bore our suffering, 
yet we considered him punished by God, 
   stricken by him, and afflicted. 
⁵ But he was pierced for our transgressions, 
   he was crushed for our iniquities; 
the punishment that brought us peace was on him, 
   and by his wounds we are healed. 
⁶ We all, like sheep, have gone astray, 
   each of us has turned to our own way; 
and the LORD has laid on him 
   the iniquity of us all.

 ⁷ He was oppressed and afflicted, 
   yet he did not open his mouth; 
he was led like a lamb to the slaughter, 
   and as a sheep before its shearers is silent, 
   so he did not open his mouth. 
⁸ By oppression and judgment he was taken away. 
   Yet who of his generation protested? 
For he was cut off from the land of the living; 
   for the transgression of my people he was punished.
⁹ He was assigned a grave with the wicked, 
   and with the rich in his death, 
though he had done no violence, 
   nor was any deceit in his mouth.

 ¹⁰ Yet it was the LORD’s will to crush him and cause him to suffer, 
   and though the LORD makes his life an offering for sin, 
he will see his offspring and prolong his days, 
   and the will of the LORD will prosper in his hand. 
¹¹ After he has suffered, 
   he will see the light of life and be satisfied; 
by his knowledge my righteous servant will justify many, 
   and he will bear their iniquities. 
¹² Therefore I will give him a portion among the great, 
   and he will divide the spoils with the strong,
because he poured out his life unto death, 
   and was numbered with the transgressors. 
For he bore the sin of many, 
   and made intercession for the transgressors

Then our dear Mandy had a verse on her heart for him to read, it was Isaiah6:4-13…. The moment was beautiful. 

The whole situation is so humbling, it really touched me. That night i began to ask Jesus, “What happened today God?” and i began to realize,sometimes you have to be stripped of everything you own to realize that all you really need is Jesus. Here I am, I have everything I need, and everything i want, and even if i say i appreciate it, i may not show it well, And here is Anthony has NOTHING and he is still happy, and hes still serving Jesus.

WHEN ARE YOU GOING TO ALLOW GOD TO USE YOU?

FINALLY!

After years of saying "I want to start a blog, I want to start a blog." and months and hours wondering "What should I write about..." and hours trying to figure out what my blog would look like....

Finally, i am here. I recently started a blog on www.tumblr.com and by accident logged out. I tried logging back in and it would not let me. My email was NOWHERE to be found--crazy right? I had this one but i never used it, so i decided to put it to use, and transfer everything from the other! (: 

I will be completely honest. I am not exactly sure myself what i am going to write about. I guess i will take it day by day. I have always wanted to keep a diary, but I was never to crazy about the idea. I think I really just want to sometimes write about my day, or about outreaches I do, or ways God uses me. There are so many thoughts running through my head.